Man if you're so absolutely inept that you can't even pull off a Shotgun suicide, can't even fuckin kill yourself right with the perfect suicide implement....there is truly no hope.
My biggest fear….is survival. Which is why I’m going carbon monoxide all the way- bought a tank online 99% pure gas. I will probably pass out within seconds, death will come in minutes. All I need is 15 min or less, and revival will be unattainable. Just in case…plan on having my DNR visible, with instructions harvesting every organ and all tissues that can save/help others. No service of any kind. Cremation. If you are reading this in 12/2021 I’ll already be gone.